11th post. ARMY TIME

"Michal I have good news for you, you are going to be a Madrichat Chir"
I sighed in relief. this was the news I was waiting for.  I got my first choice in Army jobs. 
"Also you are going to Enlist next week on thursday."
Panic and disbelief washed over me in a horribly fast rate. I felt like I couldn't comprehend.  What did my Mashakit mean next week? I was supposed to have another month at least.  I was going to run more and get in shape.  I was going to get emotionally prepared. 
I asked her if she was joking.  She was not, it seemed that she was too in disbelief. 
So I was to join the IDF much much earlier then expected.  Everything that I had set out to do was going to be tested in a much more rapid rate.  I gulped and hung up the phone.  I am still not sure if I said anything else to her after that like goodbye.  I reported back to my adoptive family and they were overjoyed for me.
I called My real parents and their reactions were not so overjoyed.
I didn't know how I wanted people to handle the news since I was still in shock.  So far everything we had been doing here to prepare for the Army had been fun,
Not stressful or realistic even.


We are living in a sort of get to know you bonding, touring pre- army camp.


Everything is so much more real. 
I went from disbelief into panic within a walk back to my room.  My roomate tried calming me down.  I couldn't be calmed.  I wanted to swallow my pride and cry for my mother. I couldn't do that since she was also in the same state. 
She isn't in Israel I can't wrap my arms around her and tell her I am nervous and scared of the un known.

I was still in my own thoughts .  Floating back somehow when My friends from the Garin spotted me and started clapping and sang me songs with country accents.  I was reminded of what an incredible group of individuals made this journey with me .  True I am going into the Army first before any of them will get to expierence uniforms or a screaming drill sargent I will already be calling them hysterically crying.  They are proving to be some of the best people I have met in a very long time, and I have only been living with them for a month and a half.


I am not proud of the hysterical state I cried myself into and snotted on numberous shirts of well meaning huggers but I am greatful that they let me do so. 


I have two more days till  I go from a civilian to a soldier.  I have never been more excited, terrified and have a constant feeling of vomiting / peeing my pants in my life. This journey really starts now .  I will be in charge of other individuals that will be directly defending our borders, country and families. 

But first Bootcamp....

















Lots of terrified, nervous, and excited snotty kisses,
Michali